eh, i'm crazy lor. i woke up at 7 something to get ready for math tuition, and then i went online until 8, then had tuition at 9, then is online again. *whacks head* i ish having no will power!!!!

and i'm thinking of friday already, hehehe, can go out with gladys, maybe jing fang will come? i think going to kino or around there on fridays have become a routine. ack. not that i dun like to go to town, but i dun like routine. unless it's good. very good. i'm confusing myself. after all, going to kino is good right? haha, going to get this very pwetty necklace that's at Isetan. on sale too!!!! so cheaper by 10 bucks. only 9.90. serious. and it'll really pretty. it may not be what i normally wear, (jason says i wear too many silver tribal symbols; sucks to you! toot) but it's so shiny and sparkly.

SPARKLY!!! SPARKLY!!!! I'M GOING MAD. @_@

yay!!! 4 more days!!! this is like a countdown or something. technically, it is. well, jsut 2 more days of school till the weekend. it's pathetic that i live only for fridays and weekends and church.

and i'm a sucker for reviews. cant help feeling proud of my fic. but it would be better if i had more reviews, right? *frowns* everytime i recieve a review, i'm like YAY!!!! and then i want to write more, but i cant!!!!! it's hard!!!!! i HAVE NO MORE PLOT. yes, me, christine of the dramatic essays, heh heh, have no more plots.

was looking at the AJ booklet, the one my mum got for the JC talk. then, there were all those courses and i was looking at the science stream. then i happened to glance at the Art stream one and i was like, they offer english as a subject? apparently. anyway, what's so good about the science stream when you're not a science person like me? so i'll most prob take the art stream, with like math, econs, eng and hist.

Pretending

emotions hidden, true feelings a mystery. no one who had the slightest idea of what i was thinking, what i was feeling. if only. then, the world will lose its brightness and sunshine, and will be bleak and depressing. a cold and cruel place where people are born to die. why not? it would be cool, for lack of a better word. no emotions getting in the way of my ambitions, and... no love.

for love would be the downfall of everything i worked for.
-tbc-

lit tml, not planning to study much, it's not like my lit's steller or anything. i just dun want to study. but the good news is 5 more days and i'll be free, technically. until the Os

now it's time for my weekly dose of feeling sorry for christine. i should have a better motto than it's the attitude that makes the difference. of course i truly believe that motto, it's just extremely hard to follow at times. seize the day? perhaps.

it's not that i'm extremely desperate or anything. it's not that getting a bf is a top priority in my life. it's not, trust me. i think the top priority is to heheheh, rule the world. not in that dictatorial sense, (we all know what happened to Hitler) but my defination of ruling the world would be to get whatever i want, that'll make me happy.

not saying that i'm not happy now either, i'm pretty satisified with my lot in life, (if u dun count the inability to score well in school; bleah) but there's something missing. please dun say i'm missing love coz i'll slam someone. just missing something. and i dun know what it is.

just feeling moody i guess, sonya will be asking me if i'm PMSing. i'm not, just have a lot of mood swings. i'm trying not to push people away, but i feel like wallowing in my corner of extreme self-pity. i cant even stand myself when i'm in those kinda moods. sorry, jason, but i dun think chocolate cake and red wine will even help, thanks anyway for that offer. (and u know that it's the best thing to seduce me with, heh) nvm, i'll make it up to you one day, ne?

been having semi-good dreams. though they've been also rather weird. i realised that my dreams are strangely prophetic. in a twisted way. whatever i dream will come true, in the opposite way. it's happened many times. e.g., i dreamt recently that i didn't get my PGA, and i was crying in my sleep, and then the next day i found out that i DID get it. i dreamt that i didn't get in for my interview for the denmark international camp, but i did. there are qt a lot of examples. suffice to say that getting *something* from seishirou was a nice dream but didn't come true.

SO! in a really twisted way, i've decided that i want bad dreams that'll come true in a good way.

first time i did it
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Which Guilty Gear X character are you?

second time


Which Guilty Gear X character are you?


now listen! the second time i actually did it, i realised that you dun have to put the worst option to get that. i'm not always cruel.

first result:

Which X Pairing Are You?

second time i did it.

Which X Pairing Are You?

i have decided that i'm plain stupid and should just go and die. pooh on u

posted by christine | 2:42 PM | You can rule the world. After I'm done with it.

the sun that sets in the hands of a man. now. who could that be? someone that smiles at you and your day is made? well, there may not be a guy to do that for me, but there's other people who'll bring a smile to my face.

yeah, well, i sent people another bloody questionaire. and well, only jing fang replied so far.

favourite ice cream flavour: chocolate mocha almond. and vanilla if it's on someone. <-- my answer

her answer: er, christine, the vanilla thing, it had better not be what i'm thinking of...

eh heheheheh... well, yeah, it is. is's just that i betcha u cant think and know for sure who the hell i'll like to have vanilla on. *cackles madly* aside from the 3 guys i own, (1 shared with u, dear jf)... there aint much to choose from. i've got a feeling yuuto will just add the vanilla into his tea (he should have more imagination). so that'll leave fuuma.... and my sei-chan. leave it to ur imagination.

Kill me. yes, you've heard me. you know that's my wish. to die at your hands. must you torture me so? make me wait for an eternity to be happy? does it surprise you? make you think deeper than you can ever imagine?

questions that can never be answered. because you'll never take my words seriously, never take me seriously. i'm just a game, something to pass the time, surpress the boredom. do i sound bitter? of course. that's because i am. you're the hunter, i'm the prey. the hunter loves, craves, needs... wants the chase. the prey can only keep on running.

i'm tired of running. tired of playing the game which has no rules. tired of life without you by my side. that will surprise you. i've watched you, unbeknown to you, i enjoyed the chase. it meant that i was something to you. will you at least grant that wish? if you cannot kill me, then love me instead. life is meaningless without your loved ones by your side...

i'm not the innocent person you think i am. i've seen the worst, and best side of you. nothing can surprise me anymore. simply because i've been shocked by your murderous deeds, yet touched by the softness of your hands when you caress my cheek. you may have kept silent, but i believe that your touch spoke volumes even when you failed to say a word.

i'm not being naive, i know you better than you know yourself. look into your heart and you'll realise the truth. i'm more than a thing to you. from that day we met, we were destined to hate each other. at the same time, destined to love each other.

mua fren asked me this weird question. no, ok, so it's not weird, just strange that she would suddenly ask me this question outta of the blue.

"would u cheat on ur bf?"

to which i replied that it was a stupid question since i dun even have a bf yet. and then i said, u mean u wan to cheat on ur bf?

then she went :" aiyo... my bf and i... , just wanted to know. what if the guy was better than ur bf in every way, like in looks, and how he treat u etc...., then how?"

then i went: " dump ur bf!!!! " then i giggled like crazy.-.-;; i know, remember it was the after effects of alcohol in my system.

then she said:" serious? u would really dump your bf for someone else that the future doesn't seem certain with?"

and i was :" eh, u're not telling me everything, now u say something else, TELL ME EVERYTHING!!!"

so she posed this question:" subaru VS seishirou. (now for ignorant people out there, surprisingly, the people she was talking about really had their character, of course not as good looking. trust me, i've seen the people she's talked about)

hypotical guy "subaru" her now bf, heheheh... good looking (damn her)... but very quiet rather moody guy, treats her damn well (damn her again)... very sweet

hypotical guy no 2 "seishirou" EVEN BETTER. (BETTER LOOKING SOB!!!!)... flirty, witty, talks more than "subaru", treats girls damn well (note:girls) ... but hey, he may look like a playboy, but he's really not, (at least that's what he claims when he finds his true love *gag*)

ok, fine, so i know these 2 fine good looking peeps. in fact, i was so shocked that my fren was even considering "seishirou", damnit, he's mine!!!!! so i told her she was insane, she laughed and said:" i knew u liked him!!!! finally u admit ittttttt..." with that wicked laugh of hers... grrr....

and i was like "whatever. " then i called "seishirou", and he was like, "i know!!!! she tricked me too!!! she was going on and on about this senerio with u and another girl she knew." then he said, :" now u know u're the only girl for me." then we both laughed like crazy. obviously, because we knew it was not true. damn her.

i'm bored. really bored.
and i shouldn't be. not when there's wonderful maths to be done! PGA prep to be done! ok, going to do them now

am i screwed or am i screwed? that's a weird question now i think about it. strange... ok, nvm, back to the topic before i need to switch off the damn computer and go read romeo and juliet. of which, btw, the book was ruined/made nicer? by that stupid X fanfic (surprisingly accurate) of X characters into romeo and juliet senerio. (it was even the whole book) i'll never think of the same quotes in the same way ever again. *shakes head sadly*

but that's not the bloody point!!!!

so what is? guides hq called me and told me that the council had met again for the pga... and to make a long story short, i have another shot at my pga. whoopie. hmm, good news or bad? screwed or not? like, i've to get the test done by the 18th september. first piece of bad news: this SCREWS up my prelim studying timetable!!!!!! second piece of bad news: i've be doubled SCREWED if i dun get it. haha. who else can say that they've tried for the pga twice???????? oh, this complicates my life so much! fun! and i'm panicking for A maths! double fun! in just 2 bloody days!

ok, i'm not meaning to sound ungrateful for the second chance. but... just understand the situation i've been put under.

stupid, was really looking forward to slacking off today with the reading of fanfics. but i think ff net is cuckoo again, so... *growls*

found out good stuff about x. the recent asuka may/april 03 issue has like 32 pages on x. n let's jsut say that things are getting interesting.

today's ss, argh, i was the only person who did both questions, as in the source based and the structured. hard working right? smiles. not really. it was just that i really went to learn all the chapters in sec 3 and 4, and i felt if i didnt do it, it'll be such a god damn waste. and i'm not one to waste stuff. impressive. i'm impressed. whoohoo, and i think i'm getting a little high. i realised that everyday whenever i go online just before i go to bed, i'll go to bed with a smile everytime i finish reading or looking at an x fan site. fuuma and yuuto and seishirou will do that to a person, especially if you're a person like me. cheers

did those smart select thingy quizzes. for x, what did u expect? (it's the who i'm most like thingy?)
and i didn't cheat, i swear. as in, i really honestly answered the questions. the thing is u just cant cheat with the smart select quizzes, coz no matter what, it's kinda hard to predict the outcome of the quiz anyway.
and i refuse to believe that me being like seishirou shows that i have a perverted nature with a lust for blood and gore. who am i kidding? i DO like blood and gore. and me being like nataku? unable to show emotions? watch it man, before i blow u to bits. now that sounds like seishirou or fuuma. can i help it if my personality is closer to an angel than a seal? *perplexed look*

#1 Sakurazuka Seishirou
#2 Nataku
#3 Monou Fuuma
#4 Yatouji Satsuki
#5 Kuzuki Kakyou
#6 Shirou Kamui
#7 Kasumi Karen
#8 Kigai Yuuto
#9 Sumeragi Subaru
#10 Arisugawa Sorata
#11 Shiyu Kusanagi
#12 Nekoi Yuzuriha
#13 Aoki Seiichirou
#14 Kishuu Arashi

http://www.selectsmart.com/FREE/select.php?client=xpersonality

and i'm the only wu liao one still online. death wish, is what i have. nvm

monou fuuma
STATUS: dude, he's breathin' and makin' things go BOOM with pop cans

BISHOUNEN FACTOR: tell it to his face and he'll a) treat you to ice cream; b) strangle you

ANGST LEVEL: hah! No guilt on his part...

LIFE EXPECTANCY: not very high- if Kamui lives, he's going to bite the dust. (And you just know Kamui's going to live. Oh, wait, this is CLAMP...)

THE BASICS: a mother who died giving birth to the Shinken, a father murdered whilst protecting it and he who used it to ruthlessly slay his sister Kotori. Doesn't that just warm the cockles of your heart?

After his childhood friend Kamui chose to become a Dragon of Heaven, it is revealed that Fuuma is his Twin Star. And so he must fill the Void left by this choice, and Fuuma becomes a Dragon of Earth.

... all the while transforming into stylishly Dark Fuuma, one who has the power to discern the Wishes of others and dines in the company of assassins (or at least share a little ice cream... which, of course, would him the ice cream assassin, no? How many fates turn around in the overtime?).

THE LOOKS: dark spiky hair and an awful fashion sense that strangely metamorphoses into something a whole lot more stylish when Fuuma becomes an Angel. Fits the bill of "tall, dark, handsome, has a penchant for blood and mayhem" like a glove. And the John Lennon style shades. Oooh... did we mention the utter swankishness of the shades?

And the ice cream. The crepes. The frog, for dear Valentine's sake!

THE POWERS: enormous telekinetic and psychic power (similar to Kamui); the ability to see into the hearts of others and perceive their "Wish"; being a total jerk and charisma-on-legs all in one shot

THE SMARTS AND THE SOCIAL: obviously dropped out of school when he turned into Dark Fuuma, he is nevertheless of shrewd character. Though he can be the most charming of men, the instability of Wishes and the fact that he wants to destroy the Earth can be troublesome at parties.


THE CASH FLOW: given that he wants to destroy the Earth, if you need the money, Fuuma will probably just "appropriate" it without second thought. Or mooch off of Kanoe with his death stare... Current residence is underneath city hall, but I'm sure he can accommodate you elsewhere if you Wished it.


THE HOMEMAKER: Dark Fuuma? Don't even think about it. Can you just imagine Tall, Dark and Evil™ doing the laundry? Nice image, but he'll probably just enslave Kamui into doing his menial chores.

However, should he be "nice" Fuuma- the one who helps out at the Temple and such- then you'd probably have an easier time getting him to share the chores.


THE IN-LAWS: Monou Saya (mother; deceased); Monou Kyougo (father; deceased); Monou Kotori (sister; deceased)... nope, I don't see them getting into the picture any time soon, unless you count the frequent apparitions of Kotori's head


THE RIVALS: though Kamui seems to have some sort of place in Fuuma's life, I don't think you'll have much protesting from him. Other than his dinner dates with the Sakurazukamori, Fuuma has not really shown any interest in furthering (romantic?) interests.

And it's not like you'll have any problems with Sakurazuka Seishirou...


THE BED: now this should be interesting...

A sadist at heart, Fuuma is probably dominant in bed, if not downright violent. If anything can be read by his interactions with Kamui (and, hooboy, can it be read), this Dragon of Earth would most likely be into the whole S&M and bondage scene. Or rather, something with a lot, a lot of blood.

Also expect a substantial amount of energy put into the bedroom- for Dark Fuuma is a sensual being- and bending to this man's will. Though he does have his charismatic and seemingly gentle side, passions would be let loose, and you should probably look out for circumstancial Shinken.

(Of course, this can probably be changed if you Wished for it hard enough...)

THE WILDCARD: have a death wish? He wants to destroy the Earth, you know... um, still interested? Then Fuuma would probably be an interesting husband, if dominating and a little intimidating. Loyal, too, though this could border on possessiveness.

... riiiight.

ok, so what kind of example am i setting for my sis? a very bad one. i'm not studying again, as in, i'm sick of it. and that's worrying. i think that a lot of people have this very slackish feeling, as if they've like decided that they've studied too hard already or something. even better, sometimes, we just dun feel like studying, and the fact is that we haven studied enuf yet. er, get it? we're just sick of studying.